B12 Deficiency... not good, but otherwise a decent food day~

So, I am apparently severely B12 deficient. SEVERELY.  I have to get bi-monthly shots and my dr wants me on daily replacement.  I am apparently NOT absorbing it through my gut like I should be, and this is more than likely the cause of my ALMOST DEATH last year. 

I'm going to be making another appointment with my dr to discuss this and why it could be happening and what I can do to stop it.  I eat enough eggs, shellfish, fish and other animal products to be getting MORE than enough of this vit.  I also don't eat wheat so that inflammation should be GONE.  How long should it take for my gut to heal?  Really???

Right now, I want to pull my hair out and SCREAM!

Excited to go get my dog tomorrow, even if I am just going to take her to the vet and such.  I may just keep her overnight because its an hour drive there and then another hour back to where she is staying with my brother in law.  I hope that she is approved.  I hope that it happens before this weekend.  I WANT MY DOG!

I've been eating twice a day.  'fasting' through the morning and eating at 11 or noon.  Then trying very hard to not snack between lunch and dinner at about 530.   My only concern is that I may not be getting enough calories, but I'm NOT hungry.  Perhaps if I pick up my activity again I will be, and I have new dance class starting next week (one day a week for 2.5 hours!) Hip hop fusion and technique and muscle control! *YAY* 

I'm gong to EXPLODE!

I am so nervous and excited at the same time!
I got the letters into the landlord for my emotional support animal accommodation. They called today to ask that I submit a photo and the spay and vaccine records for her. Since she has been living with my brother in law, I dont have her updated vaccines, and if his psycho gf did then we cant find the information. SO~ I've got an appointment tomorrow afternoon to have her shots and a checkup.
I am so afraid they are going to say no. SO afraid.
I am refusing to give into the need to munch. I ate a good breakfast/lunch and am still full.
my heart is beating fast and my fingers are tingly. not feelings I like, but I'm also not going to take a xanax. I'm going to finish cleaning my living room! HA!

My Blood Pressure was NORMAL!

So, my blood pressure was NORMAL today when I went to the dr.  110/70!!!  That is what my pressure was like BEFORE I GOT SICK!   I'm thinking that I'm going to have to invest in a arm cuff reader.  Wallgreens online has them for under $50. Apparently the medicine is working.

I called the dr office (my primary, was at the ob this morning) and asked if I needed to worry about if its going to go lower and what I should look for for symptoms.   Light headed, dizzy blah blah.  All things my medication  has already been doing to me. BUT I do remember the yuck feeling that I was having when I was sick before, so I'll keep an eye out for those feelings.
Went to costco today.  Hubby had ONE request.  Breaded chicken patties.  *ugh* So, my cart was full of strawberries,tomatoes, avocados, spinach, eggs, shrimp, and motz cheese.  THEN there are the breaded chicken patties.  Its almost embarrassing.  Like when I go and buy pasta roni and crap that he wants.  *meh*  Its slowly becoming less and less that I have to mess with the pasta roni and stuff, but its still there.  I'm just glad I have no temptation to eat it. 
Sad that I couldn't find macadamia nuts again today.  Probably for the better, but I've been craving them.

I am amazed!!

I wasn't hungry when I got up today, walked down to the bus stop, came home and tried to read a few emails and ended up back in bed. Woke up to a phone call from my daughter letting me know that she was sick, so I asked if she could make it till her brother got home, because I was headed that way anyhow. Fell back asleep and then was woken up again by the lady who is working with us to do our short sale! *YAY*
Great stuff! I've got a pile of crap to print and sign, but its ok. It would be great to get rid of that. I'm tired of it hanging over our heads.

So~ NO food all morning,  scarfed about 5 bites of leftover hamburger and veggie mixture at about 1 and headed to immediate care because kids were sick, and cant get in to see our dr. Son has a rash, daughter has a virus. 3 hours in the dr office with two kids that were hungry... TOO MUCH! I thought I was going to go crazy. *sigh* BUT I never really lost it like I would have before.

BUT~ My whole point. I had ZERO feelings of low blood sugar. Very few feelings of actual hunger, and my blood pressure wasnt as high! *YAY*  138/88 is way lower than 157/98.  I really wasn't too hungry and came home, had some salad with avocado and then had a chicken sausage and some mashed squash with butter. Almonds and chocolate chips for a snack. I'm more than satisfied. Really, ready for bed.

Waiting for kids to go to bed first though.

Habit~ Its a good thing!

I have found that it is becoming habit for me to eat things that I have outlined for myself!!
I dont reach for the items in the fridge that are non primal, items that are not so good for me or have piles of sugar.  I dont choose to eat refined and processed foods.  I view everything I eat and cook as a way to fuel my body in ways its never been fueled before.  I know the carb counts of everything I eat, and know about how much of each item I can eat and how much I cant. 
I'm very pleased with myself.  I feel better and better.   We even went out to dinner tonight! I had a nom cob style salad from Red Robin with avocado, chicken, bacon, eggs, tomatoes and olives.  I had them leave off the blue cheese because its YUCK!

I've felt a bit woozy since starting my new medication.  It will get better I'm sure.  Its just that I have found that its hard to tell when I'm really needing food because it seems to mimic low blood sugar symptoms.  I haven't had those feelings for a VERY long time.  Not pleased.

Adding a new medication has made it difficult this weekend to get much of anything done.  I have to start sewing tomorrow to get a few items finished and start cutting out other items for my lil show/vending thing.  I've designs in my head and on paper already!

Must head to bed.  Its late, and even though I don't have to get up super early because Brocc doesn't have school, I would like to be out of bed before noon.

Hypertension. Ideas and a Theory.

So, have talked with my husband and his brother (who has a degree in body training, nutrition and all that great fun stuff) and he says that eating the way I am is SUPER healthy, Loves that I'm filling up on clean carbs, but that I need to eat more often. I told him to suck it, I'll eat when I'm hungry and only then, AND that I dont have insane needs to shove food into my mouth over and over again because of blood sugar issues.

BUT~

We also did the 'pow-wow' about my hypertension.

I have NEVER had high blood pressure. After my 4 month stint of my heart working out of control to try and pump what little blood I had in my body THROUGH my body, its been HIGH. out of control high. It was just that I wasn't having it checked very often.

We are thinking that it is possible that my heart was damaged during that time. I did almost die. I should have been dead, but I'm too stubborn to give in. My poor dr doesn't even know what to do with me.

I felt fine today. Went to get my patches, tested my blood pressure and it was 147/89 My HUSBAND had BETTER blood pressure than I did! And he's on medication and ALWAYS high!

If all of my other tests had come back funky, I would have thought that it was because of that, but come on? Are we just seeing the first steps of horrible damage that my heart has caused itself? My blood work is NORMAL. GOOD normal. My dr was in shock of how well my blood work came back. Told me that with better sleep and continued exercise my good cholesterol would continue to go up.

And I know that I am just rambling, but I'm kinda scared and don't really know what to do about it. I'll ask my dr when I go see him with my husband on the 26th (he wants both of us in there) and if I freak out before then, I can always call the office and bug him over the phone. I have my ob appointment on Wednesday, so that will help a bit... We'll see...

Sorry to be so freakish. I have to get it out somewhere...

Its working!!!

So, I've done some major change though my diet in the last few weeks.  Sticking with what I feel works best for me.  and its WORKING!  I'm down 4 pounds this week.
Went to the dr yesterday to get a letter for my landlord so that I can have my dog come live with us as my emotional support service animal.  Its a much needed thing.
I also had lab work done.  its all NORMAL!!!!  My Ha1c is 5.2 (higher than my lowest of 4.5 six years ago)  but lower than the 6.5 it was before I went into the hospital.  My CBC Hemoglobin has gone up another point to 14.5 (YAY!!! This is amazing after being at 3.9)   Said my LDL is a bit low, but that will fix itself with better sleep and continued fitness exercise.
Crappy news... He diagnosed me with hypertension.  My blood pressure was 157/95.  O_o  I had a headache that caused blurred vision for 3 days.  He is prescribing me with a super low dose of Catapres patches for a month, because he imagines that my blood pressure is due to stress and perhaps my birth control pills.  I have an appt with my OB on wednesday.

So, Its moving forward!!!
*YAY*

Its what's for dinner~

I didn't take a picture, it just wasn't so colorful and pretty, and I don't feel very well anyhow.  Still have a headache and still haven't gotten to the store and the pharmacy still hasn't filled or received my prescription.  Even though I've called 4 times and each time they've sent it over and they aren't getting it.  *grr*

BUT~ Dinner~
Butternut squash, boiled gently with spaghetti sauce on the top!  Ground lean beef in tomato puree with lots of seasoning and a bit of coconut amino's.  mmmmm...


I'm ready for bed, but since Joe is not home, and have no idea of when he is going to be home, I can't go to bed and leave the children to their own devices.  So, I will do Brocc's reading with him and keep going till they go to bed...

Confirmed again~ I am a freak of nature.

My dr has once again confirmed that I am a freak of nature. That I am atypical and that my conditions are atypical and that I'm hard to know how to treat. I'm not a bad freak of nature, I'm just odd. He's fascinated with me, and that's good. He also CARES about what happens with myself and my family. He sees all of us.
I've got high blood pressure. Its oddly high, and that's NOT ok since I am on BC pills. Yes, I have an appointment with my ob on next Wednesday to discuss my BC options and have my yearly visit. I'm kinda freaked out by the high blood pressure. I had a friend tell me about her experience with the stuff I'm on, and she got super high blood pressure and all that wonderful CRAP.

My headache is getting worse today and I still need to get to the pharmacy to pick up my perscription before I crash. and, I need to cook dinner. and do everything else that I need to do. *SIGH* I cant get a headache. Its not allowed! *stomps foot* Should get started before I cant move.

Its what's for dinner...

Yes, my desk is a mess, but dinner is OH SO GOOD!
Bacon wrapped chicken tenders, roasted mini peppers with cream cheese and spinach and butter head lettuce salad with ranch.   Yes, I know that ranch isnt primal, but guess what?  I don't care.  O_o

My dance

I am a belly dancer.  I am also a costumer.  I use belly dance as fitness, stress relief, social time and really TONS of fun!  It makes my brain and my body both work.   After a few years of not really doing any dancing I've jumped back in with both feet first.  Two classes most weeks, lots of dvd practice and basic drills.  I noticed last night, while in class, that I've forgotten how to improvise to music.  O_o WHAT THE HELL?

I've danced for large crowds, small crowds and on a dance floor in a club.  My body ALWAYS knew what it was doing!!!  I realize that it is something that I am going to have to work on, and continue to take classes and drill and work with dvd's.   Showing my audience the music with my body! 

Its almost embarrassing how, in my brain, I want to emulate someone else, and just copy what others are doing instead of thinking for myself.  It could be my major ATS and Tribal background coming to the forefront, but I've done all sorts of dance, solo dance a big part of it.

I remember long time ago when I felt that I had a bunch of costume, and never enough dance to fill it.  I could kick myself now.

So, I am re-teaching my body and my mind the movements of dance. I'm fueling my body with amazing whole food and have TONS of energy and brain power to work with and I will continue to work on and move forward with my dance and someday soon, get back on stage. 

It is a true love, and I won't let it fall to the wayside.

NEED MORE SLEEEP! Buternut Squash Chips!

I'm not getting enough!!!
Even when I drug myself into stupidity, I'm only getting 5-6 hours a night. and those are broken hours. Ive been taking small naps in the morning. I don't function during the day without them!
My workouts have suffered for it, but I've tried to do some stuff, and I'm just NOT energized.
I have noticed that I don't have to take as MUCH medication to fall asleep, that is a good thing. now... to get to the point where I don't HAVE to drug myself to sleep... I'm tired, but my stupid brain just wont shut down. It keeps talking to me and telling me about this or that or whatever and really I just wanna scream. I can be super tired, go lay down to go to sleep and be wide awake within minuets.
hence the pills. Xanax is a miracle for me.

Had to enter in my own raw broccoli slaw in the sparkpeople tracker! Apparently the one that is currently in the tracker is mixed with mayo or something. I weighed out the 3 oz and realized it would fit into one cup. SO~ I put that in, so that its a bit more accurate.

Added a small smoothie to breakfast to help with my carbs, I've not been keeping them high enough, and its killing me. I can only fit so many veggies into my belly!!! And fruit is an important thing to have in our diets. Its full of fiber and vitamins and other good stuffs. I really love that I am NOT afraid of eating fruit and veggies and having carbs in the higher levels. I'm energetic and feel good. What I am eating is whole real food and so full of natural energy and nutrition.

Butternut Squash Chips from A Couple Cooks Blog

I think that I am going to make some of these~  Crunchy has been in my brain for a few days...
They would be amazing with cinnamon, or spicy chili powder and lime juice!

I'm in love with Broccoli Slaw!

Its good on EVERYTHING! I've had it in my salads, just raw on my plate, out of the bag... Tonight I sauteed some up in butter and could honestly eat another helping of it, alas my daughter ate the rest! I'm going to start getting the carrot slaw too. Its a convenience food, but sometimes that's all it takes for me to eat more of it. Its not like its highly processed with added ingredients. I've always preferred the stems of broccoli to the florets for the texture alone!
I can honestly see me using this instead of zucchini as 'noodles' for pad thai, or spaghetti, or anything!

I didn't have butternut squash with dinner tonight. I forgot about it in the excitement of hubby cooking my london broil super rare (drool) and having that for dinner. I didn't even put horseradish on it. It was SO good! Cant wait to have some on salad tomorrow... The funny look I got from hubby when I told him to cook all three of the smallish top round steaks. (ok, smallish to me). ahahah Told him that I will eat it ALL up! Salad here we come!

Dance class tonight. Struggling with a mild headache. Perhaps my body is detoxing itself from that slice of pizza I had on Saturday. *ugh*
Will be nice to get out of the house...

Re-thinking my meals~

I seem to just not be eating enough during the day and allowing myself to be hungry, when I could be shoving my face full of super healthy nutritionally dense foods.
Breakfast is going to be protien dense, AND include bright tasty veggies. Its how I feel the most satisfied. Lunch will be my general salad with boiled eggs, and chicken breast~
Tomorrows dinner has changed because I got a good price on some london broil (one of my favorite cuts of meat) and I can then eat on that all week long if I cook up the two that are in the package.
I can only hope that this will help to control my evening snack desire. and if I get one, I'll have some easy protein to get my mouth on!

I'm giving myself 7 days on this goal. NO give or take here. I'll be a bit high on protein, but I'll keep up with drinking my water and keep it going. I'm struggling to get my carbs high enough!! and I'm stuffing myself with veggies!

I can do this. I will do this. Time to experiment and I will log my feelings before and after each meal in my notes on the nutrition page.

Snacks?

I need ideas for snacks!
I eat through the day, try to not allow myself to get too hungry, LOVE LOVE LOVE that I don't have severe blood sugar drops that cause me to binge on anything and everything in front of me.
BUT~ I've had a horrible habit of having sweets in the evening. I've been working on breaking it, but making fruit and coconut milk smoothies every once in a while are nice.

I'm finding that I get the 'munchies' at night and honestly dont want to eat veggies. I want nuts and chocolate. Or nuts. Or cheese. I bet an egg would work too. with salt.

Ideas? Snacks? Things that are grain free, refined sugar free and legume free? Apples and almond butter? Something else and almond butter? anything?

I'm staying within my calories and carbs every day. a bit low sometimes. I just dont want to be mindlessly eating and never getting full.

5 days of weeknight meals planned!

I tried to plan meals last week, but it just didn't all happen the way it was supposed to~

I've got 5 weekday dinner meals planned, and I am going to stick with them~

Monday: a "hot plate" idea from Well Fed
Ground Pork, Cabbage, and Apples with some Caraway, mustard powder and paprika.
Salad and some sort of pasta for hubby.

Tuesday: Hot Plate~
Ground Beef (12%) Broccoli Slaw, mushrooms, water chestnuts and "best stir fry sauce ever" (from Well Fed) With Rice for the family. Green Salad

Wednesday: Bacon Chicken (strips of breasts with bacon wrapped round and broiled) sauteed Broccoli Slaw and Chocolate roasted cauliflower. Some sort of side for hubby

Thursday: Spaghetti~ Tomato sauce with ground beef or sausage and zucchini noodles and a large salad.

Friday: Hot Plate Ground Beef, Cauliflower, Red peppers, olives and pizza seasoning. Some side for hubby. Big salad

I feel good knowing what I'm making for dinner, Its takes a TON off of my brain in the evening. One less thing to obsess about! *YAY*

Breakfast and lunch are easy for me. I'm the only one eating here at home. My son has toast (he's not a big breakfast eater) and my daughter eats at school. Both kids eat at school (the joys of free lunch) and then are always welcome to apples and veggies when they get home.

My family is no where NEAR being paleo, but they deal with my strange eating habits pretty well I think! And it fits in with the family meals.

Well that was strange!

Last night was pizza night.
yes, I only ate the toppings and a big salad.

BUT~ Before I ever got to my dinner... I started to feel pressure in my stomach, like a gas bubble, pain between the shoulders and realized this is a very familiar pain. Comes on with little to NO warning and is so excruciating that I almost had hubby take me to the hospital. He says that it was a panic attack. I told him that I had zero reason to have an attack, zero reason the last time this happened (a few years ago) and to explain to me why after I ate about 10 antacids, the pain went away~ It took about 20 min for it to go away, but it went away.

Now... here is something about myself and pain. I apparently dont feel pain like some people do. This was a 6 on the 1-10 scale, childbirth only ever being where I got to 10. I've had some pain in my body and life before. LOTS of pain. BUT I also understand this pain would have had most people curled into a fetal position and sobbing. This is from my doctor by the way. I am an 'ox' to him. ahahah

Hubby checked my pulse, kept an eye on my breathing and the color of my fingers and lips. I was just in alot of pain. I could breathe fine, it just HURT. Was NOT gallstone pain, I've had that. Was not kidney stone pain, I've had that too. This hurt WORSE than the 3 kidney stones I've passed. I hadn't had anything strange to eat. Last time this happened, I had ONE bite of asparagus that my mom offered me. The pain expanded and blew up. Felt like I needed to burp really bad, but there was NO air coming out!
Once the pain went away, with pepto, I was able to go have a few more bites of asparagus.
Last night, I ate a piece of sausage off off one of the pizzas. ONE.
When i was done with my attack, i was able to go ahead and eat most of my salad and the toppings off of a few pieces of pizza without lasting pain or stomach upset.

now~ I'm sure everyone is going to be sure that I should have gone to the dr because it sounded like a heart attack. Had it moved further, and had my heart been beating strange or not hard enough I would have. I was under close monitor from my husband.

BUT DAMN~ PAIN PAIN PAIN.

No Surprise....

I have zero hunger this morning. After eating enough calories to keep me going for today, last night!

I'll go with it for now. I'm not going to shove food down my throat because I think I need to. I really really want to go back to bed. I'm beat, physically and emotionally. My body is on rebel mode~ Scale didn't move at all from yesterday, so that's good! Since Friday is my 'weigh in' day. I should do measurements, but I'm bloated and it wont give an accurate measurement. Next friday will be better.

I thought that I had dinner for tonight planned out... alas NOT SO! I'm going to make grilled chicken breasts and cook up some yummy side veggies. The nuts have been put AWAY.
Almonds aren't so bad for me.

I really hope to get some good sleep this weekend. No alarm waking me up.

this feeling, this super tired and listless feeling... this is one of the main reasons I take a very expensive pill that regulates hormones.

The psychology of a binge...

So. I screwed up tonight. I had such an amazing day.
I'm feeling off because of woman stuff that I'm not used to having to deal with.
I didn't eat anything that was outside of my food realm...
just a few HANDFULS of macadamia nuts. almost 1000 calories worth. They will be going into the freezer in the shed tomorrow. Or to my mom's house or somewhere that I cant get to them. They are a trigger food.

I feel like absolute CRAP right now. I honestly want to sit here and weep. and then EAT MORE NUTS. I've been off all day. this just puts the icing on the cake for me. I feel like I've failed.

I know tomorrow is a new day. And I'm sure that I'll be ok. I'm a blubbering fool of a mess right now and I'm very pissed at myself.

I dont need sympathy, I just needed to get it off my chest. If I dont tell someone, it will keep happening and that's the last thing I want. I almost think it would have been better if it were bread, or brownies or something like that. but NUTS? FATTY NUTS? I kept telling myself that I didn't need any more, and when I found myself 'sneaking' them. I knew I had to stop. So now I'm obsessing over the fact that I just screwed up big time and I'm sure I've let people down, people who believed in me. I know I let myself down. It makes me want to eat, why not huh? I've already screwed up. (I'm not going to... I refuse to let myself fall into that round robin)

Tomorrow I will pick myself back up, dust myself off and walk out on this pity party. And put those damn nuts far away.

Coconut Amino's!

So, I made chicken and dumplings for my family today. My son had requested it last night, and I didn't see what the harm was. Its one of his favorite meals and I can stuff it full of veggies. He doesn't have issues with wheat~ and he NEEDS the carbs and energy. He's a ball of go!

BUT~ I made myself some fortified chicken egg drop soup. Grilled chicken, broth, celery and carrots mixed with some scrambled eggs and coconut aminos. They are DAMN TASTY! WOW!
I am still trying to figure out why they are so expensive.... O_o

Soup is so yummy! I think the dried ginger I got from Penzy's spices is better than FRESH! I'm a ginger FREAK. This soup is SO GOOD!

Feeling under the weather again today. Think its because my body is trying to rebel against my bc pills and is allowing me to have a woman time. grrrr. I take special pills so that its NOT supposed to happen. I'm not supposed to have to deal with this CRAP. Dont know if its because of my way of eating changing or what, but DAMMIT. ok... I'm done throwing a fit. I'll make an appt with my dr asap to have my exam done and talk to her about having a different bc option.

going to talk to my other dr about my Lamotrigine and if that is the reason why I'm struggling so hard to loose pounds. Talking to a few other people who take the same thing and they are having the same issues with it. I cant figure out why? I've got an appointment with my dr next week to talk about bringing my dog home as a companion animal. Home security... all of the above. I miss my dog terribly. We all do.

I'm bitchy and crabby and achy today. I haven't had to deal with this bulllll for 4 years!

Its falling into place!

I'm a bit under the weather today, but I don't believe it has anything to do with what I'm eating! 
I feel pretty good other than being dog tired and ready for bed again.  My sinuses and ears hurt and I've got a sore throat.  I didn't get through much of my workout before going to take a nap. ugh. 

BUT~ My coat wasn't as tight around my hips this morning.  It was enough that I really noticed. REALLY noticed!  I haven't worn it in a week or so... It has always been fairly snug at the hips (whoever designs women's Carhart coats is an idiot) I didn't measure, because measure and weigh day is on Friday~



I honestly just cant figure it out.  I was eating over 2000 calories a day in fat and protein and veggies, and since I've cut back on the fat, and added more veggies and some moderate fruit, I'm no where near even  hitting the 1900 calorie top I've set for myself.  I'm SATISFIED.  I'm less hungry than I was while eating all that fat, and almost no carbs.  Apparently my body likes to have more carbs than It was getting.  I can already feel the difference in a few days of eating this way.  Lots of veggies, proteins, some nuts and a bit of dairy.  NOM!  I feel good.  I'm not starving constantly.  I'm apparently shrinking too... =)

Now, we'll see how hubby feels about the dinner I made =) Its ground turkey, canned diced tomatoes, zucchini chunked up, black olives hand crushed, some chopped red peppers and 'pizza seasoning'.  I added a touch of shredded mozzarella cheese and sour cream to my plate.  and fresh red peppers for some crunchy yum.  

Tomorrow was going to be ground pork, red cabbage, apples and some yukon gold potatoes on the side, but my son asked for Chicken and Dumplings.  So I'll have to make two pots of that, a small one for me with no dumplings, and a big one for everyone else =)   I'm ok with that.  I'll just put sweet potato and carrots and celery in mine... well they get celery too... I can do eggs...
and now I'm just rambling. 

I'm ready to curl up and go back to bed.

That scared look in other peoples eyes...

When you explain why your joints dont hurt, and why you are so full of energy, and your adult acne has all but gone away.

Was at dance class tonight. This class isn't really very active, its a composition class, so its teaching us how to show people the music with our bodies. She's jamming 15 weeks of stuff into 8 weeks!

BUT~ There is a lady who had knee replacement surgery, is currently injured and is always complaining of joint inflammation and pain. When I explained that I had done 80 squats today (YAY) and that I had no pain, and feel pretty darn good, she looked at me and wanted to know HOW DID I DO IT?? I looked at her and said "I stopped eating wheat, all grain is gone. No refined sugar. No beans. Tons of veggies and lean protein." she got a look on her face like she wanted to run away from me as fast as she could. AHAH

I've upped my carbs and feel AMAZING. Low carb was NOT working for me or my body. I obviously wasn't loosing weight either. I think I'll get results doing things my way.
Stopped and got some macadamia nuts. They had them DRY ROASTED! *WHEEE* also picked up some black chia seeds. Wish they had liquid stevia. I'll have to check at our Fred Meyer, they have a great big section for that stuff. Apparently the liquid stuff doesn't have that horrible aftertaste?

I did my Marvelous in March workout today~ all 4 sets! each set is 45 seconds each of squats, wall press ups, kettlebell swings and kettlebell around the worlds~ 15 second break between. I ROCKED IT! 80 total squats, 77 wall press ups, 105 swings and 97 around the worlds. and that was low because I dropped the bell a few times. *whoops*

Tomorrow I will give my squats a rest and do an ab workout and do my dance workout. Then I've got sewing that needs to be completed. (I always have sewing that needs completed)
Bloomers and chemise tops and skirts oh my!

I hope this sore throat goes away. its really starting to irritate me.

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This is just an amazing blog and website, full of great information and RECIPES!  Yum recipes!  

An amazing feeling!

Now this is a strange feeling. I'm hungry. I ate my 4 eggs at noon, and then we went to the gun show and walked around for a while (found a shotgun I want!!!). I've been hungry for a few hours at least, but its not a gnawing pain, I dont feel light headed, and I know that I can go another 45 min until dinner time. I had about 15 almonds, a tbsp of almond butter and 4 green olives. Its been a very long time since I've felt hungry and not go shove my face full of food that just isn't necessary. I'm making sirloin steak on the grill for dinner with salad and perhaps some butternut squash sauteed in coconut oil.
I do know that I need to make some homemade almond butter.  Need to roast my almond meal (homemade) or its going to go bad I think.  I keep it in the fridge.  

Today I feel good.  A bit tired, but feel good. 

Marvelous In March Kettlebell And Bodyweight Workout with Rocofit.com

New workout with Rocofit.com is listed!  Marvelous in March is the goal!  MM <--- Link to blog and video! I'm stoked about this workout, and will be doing it 4 times a week and an ab interval 3 times a week~ I will stack these sometimes and still do at least 30 min of belly dance 5 days a week.  Either Rachel Brice or Ariellah. I would love to add in some yoga, but I dont want to over do it so much.  Perhaps next month.  I use some poses to stretch and warm up before and after my workouts

I have gone through, being the obsessive person that I tend to be, calculated the BMR and LBM of my goal weight!  175 pounds!  So, with that, my calculations show that I need between 30 and 50g of good healthy carbs, 135g of lean good protein and 110-120g of good fat.   That is a range of 1600-1900 calories a day.  These are the calories and nutrients needed to maintain 175 pounds of weight on a woman eating a paleo/Primal diet. 

Now that I can stop obsessing about food, and if my family is going to eat it.  Hubby said to cook what I am going to cook, and he will eat it or not.  Tell me if he likes it or not.  The kids have to eat what I put in front of them or they just don't eat. Its so simple.  I will be using the book  Well Fed to make the majority of Dinner meals.  My daily during the day meals are easy enough.  I eat pretty much the same thing each day.  Eggs for breakfast, salad for lunch and veggies for snacks.

A friend asked me to help her with one of her paper's for school.  Its about Primal eating and how it has worked for her, as well as some other people.  Since I'm the one who got her to go primal, she asked me first.  This is my quote to sum up how I feel about it! 
                                 "Within two weeks I had zero joint pain, I am full of energy that I never had, and while I haven't lost tons of weight, I'm loosing inches.  Its about health and eating whole real foods that we should be eating.  Eating to feed your hunger, not a chart of calories.  Every meal I eat leaves me satisfied and happy.
The fitness recommended is easy and very accessible for at home, and I feel amazing after each workout.  Short workouts.  I feel my body getting stronger, and my muscles aren't as sore, even when I push myself to the tops of my limits."  Me.

So MUCH INFORMATION! And some REAL fun!

Ok, for the real fun.  This blog~ Free The Animal is AMAZING!  This post (the one I linked to) is amazing!  Its not for the faint of heart, and he's got a pretty strong foul moth (I LOVE HIM) If I weren't already happily married to my own foul mouthed man, I would propose!  He pisses EVERYONE off at some point or another, yet he makes the most sense out of EVERYONE that is writing about Paleo or Primal or any other sort of Caveperson diet.  A direct quote from this particular post "Get good sleep, give your lover a decent fucking, and laugh at anyone and everyone who wants to prescribe a life for you, especially as concerns politics and its whores."
The message?  EAT REAL FOOD.  Eat it and enjoy it. Live life.  Don't let people peg you into one single way of eating. but eat REAL food. no crap.

I've been trying to figure out how to calculate how many calories I need to eat in order to get to my goal weight. I need to figure out how to eat what I feel I need to be satisfied.  Then I had someone remind me. Calculate the calories a person needs to be at your goal weight and maintain.  Go from there!  WOW! What an amazing idea!?!  How could I have forgotten about that?

So~ I have a calorie intake that I am gearing for.  1900 calories a day to be a sedentary 175 pound woman. that is TOTALLY doable!  Make sure I get enough protein, enough fat and TONS OF VEGGIES!  I can eat for days and never get to my max 70g of carbs in a day.  Especially since I only get those carbs from REAL food.  Non starchy Veggies, a minimal amount of fruit (because its GOOD), good quality protein and good FAT! yes... FAT!  Coconut oil is my current fat of choice.  that and butter. 


I will be starting to do a meal planner for the week~ My breakfasts and lunches are easy.  I can eat the same thing almost every day and be happy.  Dinner needs to be different sometimes. BUT I think I've tried to be TOO different sometimes.  Back to basic home style cooking, just tweaking it a bit to make it paleo/primal.  My family can eat the pasta and whatever else they want, and I'll eat what I eat. it will be similar, but different for the most part.  I'll use two pans to make a skillet meal, or they can learn to like what I cook.  Even if I use veggies. 

Carb Control

I have found it easier and easier to control the amount of carbs that I ingest on a daily basis, and still get a great amount of fiber!! I need to look at getting more and more frozen veggies into the freezer as well.  This is going to take some organization for sure.  Perhaps the fridge freezer will be for my planned weekly meals, and the big freezer will be for the stocking up of those foods. 

I need to get out there and pull some of the great frozen veggies that I know are in there and start USING them! I can make soups and stews and simple things like that to eat.  It doesn't always just have to be a meat course, and two veggie sides.  Time to start using the great recipe archives I have on hand here on the computer as well as in cook books.  I have tons of fresh and frozen foods that I can be making myself meals with!  My only problem is that I'm always worried that my family wont like it, or my husband is going to start pushing back at the way I've been cooking.  He already rolls his eyes when I talk about how I've been eating, or what I've cut out of my diet, or when he sees my plate for dinner with my salad that covers over half of my plate, some meat and a cooked veggie. 

I'm keeping the carbs low for a few weeks to see if that will jumpstart some weight loss.  I know that I've lost inches, but I am overweight enough to know that I need to loose pounds as well.  LOTS of pounds.  When I started my weight loss 'battle' I weighed 250 pounds.  My goal is 170 pounds by the end of 2012.  That's a total of 80 pounds to have lost.  I've lost 8 of those pounds so far.  That is 1/10th of my goal =)  I say thats pretty good, especially since I've been doing this mostly on my own, with zero support here at home.  My dr says to do whatever works for me to loose the weight and get healthy.

I got my workout done today~ Feels great.  I honestly cant wait to do my workout tomorrow as well.  More squats, lunges and some shimmy drills for sure.  Need to get those layers down!!!  I can shimmy with the best of them, but getting the other parts of my body to do movements on top of those shimmy's is what I'm going for.  LAYERS! 

I'm excited to have joined the new forum "Being Primal" and am enjoying the course material that he has to offer, and I cant wait until more people get active and start sharing their tips, tricks, recipes, and more. 

I'm hoping to get a decent night sleep tonight.  my belly feels full, but I didn't over eat.  I added my coconut oil to my chili instead of having it on the side with coconut milk.  It was a nice addition, and I think it helped me feel fuller faster.

Time to get the kids into bed~ Then a shower for me and into bed myself.  Or at least to watch a show. 
And here is a picture of a REAL strumpet from StoryVille in New Orleans. 

What is Primal/Paleo?? Diagram

Found this diagram while looking at Pintrest.com
Its from http://www.uncommonwellness.com/ultimate-guide-eating-paleo/


I cant seem to get it to load up here on blogger so here it is~  http://pinterest.com/pin/146085581632785892/

A diagram of what I do and how I eat!!


I'm feeling pretty good!!
Had 4 slices of bacon this morning with my cup of coconut milk, oil and manna~
Drinking water and feel GOOD. I feel light and ready to take on the day.

I've done my 30 min of dance and HIIT workout~ I could go more, but would like to be able to do some tomorrow too. Its been over a week since I've done much in the way of fitness, I don't want to kill myself on day one!! I did ok on my squats, abs and even shimmies and other body drills that I work myself through. I need to make a better list because I always seem to forget... whoops! I broke a light sweat and my heart rate was up and down quite a few times (this is GOOD) I didn't loose it all! =)

I've got my lunch planned out, but I've got hours before I'm even hungry!! =) I can already tell!

Off to the sewing machine for me~ Lets see if I can get my back orders out and some new stuff sewn by the end of the week!!! I've got a show at the end of the month! Must have goodies to sell!

Leptin Reset~ Some thoughts~ Rambling thoughts...

Really~ this is a ramble that runs all over the place~ My thoughts sometimes make better sense to me as I type them out.  This is what I'm doing.  Don't feel as though you need to even read it. ahahah

So, I've been doing the Leptin Reset for 8 days now.  Pushing huge breakfast, some days eating lunch, others not.  Yesterday I felt like I almost died when I got my migraine and honestly feel pretty crappy today. I'm struggling to recover from my own body!!

I'm fighting with the lack of fitness.  My workouts are done best in the morning, AFTER I eat breakfast.  I prefer a much LIGHTER breakfast and a moderate sized lunch.  Dinner doesn't have to be big at all.   I'm questioning my reasoning behind doing the reset now.  I know that I have to give it more than a week to even see if there is a change, but I'm not feeling it.  I was feeling a low carb primal eating style.  My veggies have been cut by 3/4 and I DON'T like that feeling.  I've had acid reflux the last 3 days and haven't changed my way of eating.  

I honestly believe that this reset is for people who haven't been eating paleo/primal for a while, and are needing that jump start to the body repair. Mine was already started, and I dont feel that this was the right step for me.  I want to feel good, not lethargic and half dead.  I want to have a well rounded diet including lots of veggies and a few fruits.  I can cut back on my nut intake, I quit buying macadamias because I was eating them all the time. 

I'm thinking... that since I seem to change everything every week anyway, why not do it again.  Keep with eating when I feel hungry, not over stuff my body with protein first thing in the morning.  I honestly believe that my body was well on its way to healing itself before I started messing with everything by changing things constantly.  I'm going to eat how I feel to eat.  Sauteed veggies and eggs in the morning.  Salad or left over dinner for lunch and whatever I make for dinner.  I'm going to work on no snacks, because I could graze all day and be pleased.  Its a matter of feeding my hunger or boredom~  I have a handle on my hunger and boredom now. 
I dont do chronic cardio, I love my HIIT workouts with rocofit.com and honestly feel WAY better and WAY more energized when I am eating properly and working out.  I was getting results before, I was just ignoring them.  Why not just be who I am and do what I need to do?  I have ZERO thoughts of changing my way of eating back to anything near standard.  Grain is gone gone gone.  refined sugar is gone gone gone.  My old way of thinking and eating is GONE GONE GONE!  I cant obsess about every bite I eat.  I cant feel sick constantly because of what I'm trying to get my body to do.  I need to do what I need to do in order to feel good.   I DON'T FEEL GOOD.

My face feels thinner when I touch it. My body feels smaller, I see myself differently.  I refuse to give up and I will continue to eat super healthy good for me food. I FEEL DIFFERENT.  

I really need to get hubby to take some fat pictures of me today.  My mirror is too small to get any sort of decent pictures.  I need to measure again in the morning and get some base line measurements.  I will be adding my bust, under bust, thighs, and arms to my neck, waist and hips measurements.  I'm going to move on with my life and not obsess constantly about what I am or am not eating.  I dont eat tons of carbs.  I keep em pretty low.  BUT I NEED more veggies in my diet, and stuffing myself with so many proteins in the morning is cutting out breakfast plant food, lunch plant food and doesn't leave much in the way of space to eat plant food and not feel over stuffed when I want to eat my protein at dinner time.

Primal/Paleo is NOT a fad 'diet' to me.  It is a way of life, a way of eating and a way to heath. I just need to let it keep moving and let it take me where I need to be.   I need to just get on and enjoy the ride.  Quit obsessing and be me.  Let it work.  It shouldn't be this hard.

Paleo Magazine~ Does anyone Subscribe?

They have a discounted pdf version as well. I have downloaded the latest issue~

www.paleomagonline.com/

Looks like a GREAT magazine with lots of info and recipes! *YUM*

LR~ Day 9~ No blog Yesterday

I was going to blog yesterday evening, but went down at about 345 in the afternoon with a migraine. I was inches away from having hubby take me to the urgent care. I haven't had one like that in a VERY VERY long time. This one was vomit inducing. I had a handful of almonds at about 8 pm so that I could take another pain pill and my other pills, and was out for the rest of the night. I was STARVING, but any time I tried to eat anything, it would just come back up.

I'm shoving my 50g of protein down right now, but blarg. I'm going to eat this, and take a shower. I'm still in a hazy daze of blah.

My mom brought me some 'swiss steak' from where she works as a cook at a 'frat' type house. says, "you can rinse the wheat breading off, but the sauce should be fine" Really mom? You are a pro cook and you dont realize that there is wheat in ALL of the sauce and has been cooked INTO the meat itself? *face palm* At least she thought of me.

Making tacos for dinner tonight. I'll have taco salad. YUM. Then if I make enough taco meat, I can have that in my eggs! or just have another taco salad for breakfast!

What an exciting day! haahahah

Dance class tonight. I'm excited! Missed last night (for obvious reasons)~

Its What's For Dinner~

"Fluffy Coconut Waffles" with whipped cream, sliced strawberries and BACON!
SO GOOD! Made a few pancakes and decided that I didn't want them, I wanted WAFFLES! I have a belgin waffle maker, so I filled one of the quarters with the batter and let her go~ Would love to have had them more crispy, but so good! I ended up doing the rest in the waffle maker. I have them to put into the toaster for tomorrow too =)

LR Day 7~ Whew~

I thought it was going to be harder to stick to this experiment!!

This morning (ok just before noon, I slept in) I had left over 'pizza' and made more than my goal for my 50g of protein!! Yes, the pizza crust is made from chicken breast as well as mozzarella cheese! Entire family loved it!!! Check out yourlighterside.com for TONS of low carb and healthy recipes!!

I'm making waffles tonight for dinner. I will be making coconut flour pancakes for myself. though, you never know, I may pour some of the batter into the waffle maker to make good waffles! Then I can put butter and coconut manna on them!! AND strawberries and whipped cream... *drool*
Of course there will be bacon on the side. I imagine that hubby will have an egg and bacon sandwich. I guess that means I need to go and get some bread today O.o

I am kinda in a fog right now~ Slept too much perhaps, or it was the muscle relaxer I took last night. (was getting a neck tension headache)

Must get to the bank and do a few other things... I think I need to hit the fabric store too~ Both kids need hair cuts as well... *sigh*

LR ~ Day 6

I'm feeling better today~ Got some good sleep I think. Still feeling totally lazy though!

My coconut oil and coconut manna came today! *YAY* a full 4 days EARLY! *HAPPY DANCE*

I was almost OUT of my other stuff, but honestly I think this new stuff is WAY better~ Thank goodness for automatic subscriptions!

I was STARVING when I woke up today~ The scale had dropped a whole pound! *WOOO*

I ate my large breakfast, had my coconut oil, and honestly~ its 2 pm and I'm HUNGRY. I'm going to have some strawberries with coconut manna and heavy cream~

Making pizza tonight~ Crust recipe is the gluten free one from yourlighterside.com. Chicken and cheese! mmmmmm

LR~ Day 5 PM Edition~

I feel like CRAP today. Really. Its bound to happen. I've had a LONG week with a very sick kiddo~ I'm not getting sick, I just woke up not feeling too hot~ and it stuck with me all day. I'm ready to go lay down.
I ate my breakfast and didn't eat till dinner. Was easy enough~ I'm not hungry until about 330 or 4 pm and we eat round 530 almost every night.
Made spaghetti sauce with beef, had zucchini 'noodles', huge salad, and even some strawberries. (NOM)

I found unsweetened coconut milk 'beverage' at the store today! I just got done sipping my coconut oil and coconut milk~ That's another place that I removed added sugar! I'm the only one in the house that will drink it too! *YAY* I'm still concerned that I'm running out of cocont oil, so I've cut back a bit~ 2 tbsp a day for now I guess. I also ordered some coconut manna~ just as cheap as making my own honestly.

I plan on making a low carb, grain free pizza crust tomorrow and have pizza! Its from Yourlighterside.com (she has amazing stuff) Its made with cheese and chicken! *WOOO*
She also has a recipe for the same idea but for making taco shells. I will be making creamy garlic sauce for the pizza, with chicken, bacon and motz cheese~ I may make two, one for the family with red sauce and sausage~ we're equal opportunity pizza lovers.

Her (Jamie from the lighter side) oopsie bread is looking amazing too, but I'm not too horribly worried about it since I was only going to be making them for my daughter who was trying to be wheat free~ Its not doing what we were hoping, so she's back to eating it. I'm not pushing my eating style on my family at all. I eat what I cook, they eat what I cook, and I generally add a few things for them, like pasta, potatoes or rice~ I'm not big on replacements for other food, but pizza is a must. And since I'm primal, cheese is ok.

I'm a zombie today. I really cant wait till 8 when the kids to to sleep. Its only 630 I'm wiped~
this is the first day, other than when I was sick with a bladder infection and on antibiotics, that I feel like total CRAPOLA!

Enough complaining here~ Tomorrow is a new day!

Day 5~ LR AM edition~

woke at 8 am today~ set my alarm and made sure that windows outside my bedroom were open and my door was open. I slept through hubby going to work, only heard my daughter when she let me know that she was going to the bus. I'm thinking about a nap right now though. UGH!

Alas~ I need to get off my arse and get sewing done. Orders to fill! and some of my ready to sell stuff sold, I need to get it packed up and ready to go.

Tried to explain the Leptin reset to my mom, and she told me about a dream that she had about me =) I was slim and had a nice ass! AHAHAHAHA I love my mom!!!

ate the same breakfast that I did yesterday~ Trying to figure out what to make for dinner tonight. thinking spaghetti~ though it really just doesn't sound good... blarg. pizza I want pizza. that means I can try out the new pizza crust recipe I found on yourlighterside.com

Brocc is feeling way better today. Still coughing but not so much! He ate some breakfast too!

I'm going to go fight the urge to take a nap. I fell asleep at about 3 am~

Evening Edition (inches GONE) & Article. Really??? REALLLY????

I felt great all day. Wasn't hungry until it was time to start making dinner!!!
I'm setting my alarm in the morning to get up. I need to wake up and turn on my light or something. Being in my cave of a bedroom doesn't help. no, there are NO windows in my bedroom.

My son ate dinner tonight! He's still coughing, but not so bad. Still keeping him home till Monday, though it may drive me insane. O.o

I did my measurements today and apparently I've lost 2 inches round my waist and 2 inches around my hips. My scale hasn't gone anywhere tho...
My joints no longer ache, my intestines no longer feel bloated and I feel amazing!

NOW~ to this article. My friend posted this on her facebook wall. Apparently all she has ever heard of paleo/primal *caveman* style of eating is that they want to eat tons of fatty meat and no veggies. REALLY??? WTF??
www.slate.com/articles/l
ife/explainer/2012/02/the_
real_caveman_diet_what_did
_people_eat_in_prehistoric
_times_.html

SO~ I read the blog article. I read comments. I tried to laugh it off. BUT then I realized that this is how SO MANY People view the way of life I have chosen! I eat more veggies and VARIETY of veggies NOW than I ever did!!! I CRAVE veggies! I have to have my salad every day, I love having double servings of brightly colored and super flavorful veggies on my plate next to my super flavorful lean protein.

I dont eat grain, I shun sugar and will not eat legumes or veg oils. I DO on occasion eat dairy. Sour cream, cheese and sometimes yogurt. I chow down on coconut oil~ I get 4 tbsp a day into my gut. I love chicken and ultra low fat ground beef. I LOVE bacon. I eat it as often as I can. I also LOVE eggs, and eat those daily as well. I have the MOST energy I have EVER had in my life!!!

I dont ridicule other peoples way of eating, though I could. I could laugh at the vegans, vegetarians and other 'eaters' out there, but I honestly say "to each their own" if that's what makes you healthy and feel good, then please!! Be by guest!!! I wont tell you that you are eating wrong, Don't tell me that what I eat is wrong. I'm not eating my neighborhood kids!!!!
I will let you know my reasons behind why I eat the way I do, and site a bit of science when it comes to how inflammatory grains are to my digestive tract...

Now~ I'm going to finish eating my red cabbage with bacon crumbles and paleo orange chicken~ my salad with bright red raw peppers was SUPER tasty!

Day 4 LR~ AM~ A bit disgruntled.

Woke up late again this am. Could possibly be because I dont have any windows in my bedroom. but I slept for over 10 hours.
I'm getting my 50g of protein down no problem so far~ 4 sausage links, 4 slices of bacon, and 4 eggs~ fried in bacon grease. Trying to figure out what I'm going to make for dinner tonight.
I'm trying to keep my carbs as low as possible. I'm rooting out all the hidden sugars that I've got. I just dont get it!!! WHY is everyone else dropping pounds like crazy?? Why am I not shedding weight with the ammt of carbs I dont eat, the dairy I've even cut way back on?? It wont ever be cut all the way out, because I like it too much, and only eat cheese or fermented dairy. (sour cream, cottage cheese, and always full fat)

My son is feeling better today, but I'm still keeping him home from school till Monday. He'll catch up with his reading, and we've been doing some reading here. Glad its only kindergarten.


Disgruntled. really. I want to loose pounds! I'm not even loosing INCHES! *sigh* I need to get hubby to take some before photos for me, since nothing has changed in the last month.

Day 3 LR~ PM

Took Brocc to the Dr today~ They did xrays for pneumonia, but they came back clear. I called the school and let them know that he would be out till at least Monday. He ate some dinner! Even if it was ramen noodles! (I know evil...) He's having a few Doritos as well right now.

I got hungry today while we were at the dr office~ at about 1pm. I came home and had some heavy cream with coconut oil and a tbsp of almond butter, and a few slices of roasted turkey.

Tonight for dinner we are having bacon wrapped chicken tenders (no breading, just the underside tenders from the breasts). I broil these on racks to keep em crispy! YUM! Made some julienne carrots that I sauteed in some butter with Penzey's brand Greek Seasoning, and they were YUMMY! www.penzeys.com/cgi-bin/
penzeys/shophome.html
My usual giant salad, but cut in half. its still giant by most peoples standards, it takes up over half my dinner plate =) Had two pieces of chicken (thinking about one more) and will have my almond milk and coconut oil here soon. I got more coconut oil on order from amazon, but I don't know when its going to get here! I may just run out! *oh the horror*
I am ready for bed... *sigh*

Now here is some wisdom for you~

LR~ Day 3 Morning

Was starving last night at about midnight, but I just drank some water and went to bed.

Brocc woke me up at about 615 puking again. I was awake, I should have just gotten up and not fallen back to sleep. BUT~ I went back to sleep. Daughter says she's not feeling too hot, but I honestly think that she's fine, and Brocc's vomit power is from too much mucus at night. He puked all over while in the bath last night. He ran to the toilet and was puking from both ends. O.o that was fun to clean up. *sigh* the joy of motherhood huh?

trying a new way to get my protein in this am~ 2 cans of tuna with miracle whip (I know evil) and eating it with a fork. I'm used to eating it on chips, but didn't feel like messing with making some crackers. I'm a lil high on carbs this am, 13g but I also cut my almond milk in half and added a second tbsp of coconut oil.

I'm going to be taking Brocc to the immediate care today once I get moving and see what they can do for his mucus and cough. His fever doesn't seem so bad right now, but we'll see... It always seems to get worse later on.

Hoping that the tuna holds up to the other breakfasts I've had this week. The last few bites were being choked down.. blarg~

LR~ Day Two Evening~

I wasn't hungry until about 430!!!!

I waited till I cooked dinner to eat! Its 545 right now and I'm eating while I type~ Im not so good at sitting at the table and eating. Never have been.
Super giant spinach and baby red butter lettuce salad with ranch, mushrooms and cut up red peppers. Jicama 'home fries' with a touch of sour cream (TASTY!) and a beef/pork burger patty with a small slice of colby jack cheese on top.

Got my sewing done and shipped today~ Brocc is still sick as can be, and will be home again tomorrow. More than likely the whole week.

Friend came over and dropped off the pattern books she got from Japan for Gothic Lolita and other Hariku style clothing! SO DAMN CUTE! I cant wait till we can get making some of them!!! *WOOO* There are a few outfits I would be happy sewing for Marie! Not too 'goth' and not too 'lolita' either. not that goth is bad (if anyone knows me, I'm pretty gothy, no emo for me)

I'm missing dance class again tonight, but I refuse to share the ick that Brocc has. There is at least one lady who is immuno-represed there and cant afford to get sick! She weighs over 400 pounds and still gets up and dances dances dances =) Her weight is due to illness and excessive steroid use for her sicknesses~ Having menengitis 4 times in a row over 14 months can do that to a person.

More sewing to work on tomorrow. Couple pairs of bloomers and a skirt~ Then I'm caught up! *WOO*

LR~ Day Two AM and jicima in the crockpot~

Couldn't choke down all of my breakfast. Honestly made me almost vomit. I ate as much as I could, but only got down 40g of protein. Apparently I need to find some other way to get it into me.

Brocc is still sick. Woke again this am to his retching in the bathroom. THEN, he went on to eat some granola a few hours later. He seems ok for now, but has a fever and is a bit zombie like.
His cough is getting worse, and I may try to get him in to see someone tomorrow if it doesn't get any better. Poor little guy~

I'm exhausted. and I slept 'ok' last night. I woke up 3 or 4 times though, and that's not normal for me, especially since I took half a muscle relaxer and half a xanax~ If I didn't have to finish this project, I would be back in bed sleeping.

I honestly have a queasy tummy. NOT HAPPY.

Tonight for dinner I am planning on burger patties, jicima 'home fries' and some other veggie. I'm following the recipe from the Well Fed cook book for the Jicima~ says to cook it in salted water in the crock pot for 12-24 hours!!! Can use this method to make 'potato' salad as well!!

off to the sewing machines~ *falls over*

Leptin Reset Day One Evening~

Have eaten dinner, and am fairly full~
Had a huge salad and two apple chicken sausage links~ (big ones)~
a few hours later I had a big 'I feel hot' bit... Perhaps my eating the way I do has already started the reset process??

I had two thighs of chicken for 'lunch' with a touch of ranch at about 2, and only because I was feeling light headed. that could have been because I was using cleaning supplies as well... stupid cleaning supplies.

Zero Snacks all day!

I didn't feel hungry at all until dinner. and I'm ready for bed. I need a shower first though. Then will take my pills and pass out.

My head has felt like its stuffed up and ready to explode all day. like it wants to float away!
I'm hoping that I don't get sick.

Brocc ate some ramen and a hot dog, but didn't want any dinner. He still feels a bit warm (can't find my stupid thermometer) and his cheeks are flushed, but he seems to be feeling ok. He was ok enough to play poker with daddy for a while tonight (they love it! 5 card draw is his favorite). I really hope that he's better tomorrow to go to school. I have tons of work that needs to be done!

I have sausage out to mix with my eggs in the morning.

My brain feels like its going to explode... meh

Day 1~ Leptin Reset (am)

Woke up today to a puking little boy. *sigh* Hubby says he doesn't feel so well today either, so I have no idea what is going on. Brocc (my son) has a mild fever and is sipping water, but he says his tummy is really just not doing so well.

SO~ I didn't get to eat within the first 1/2 hour of waking.
BUT~ I did get my almond milk with coconut oil in. I may start using that as my 'before bed' snack. I have issue with being hungry after I eat dinner, and just before bed... last night, I had some almond milk and coconut oil and it was all taken care of~

Just finished breakfast~ 48g of protein. 4 eggs and 97g of cooked pork chop cut up. added some sour cream and taco seasoning to that. now I'm ready to go back to bed for a bit. O.O
Too bad I've got sewing to do, not that I couldn't do it tomorrow. There is no mail today anyway~

Talk about Date night!!! How sweet it is!

Last night, hubby and I had 'date' night! My mom kept the kids overnight (she lives a whole block away!) and we, on the spur of the moment, decided to find a hotel room with a two person jacuzzi tub! Found one! Checked in, walked a few blocks to a pretty good seafood resteraunt and had tasty dinner!
Who knew that halibut was so SWEEET! I actually asked if they put sugar or something on it! SO TASTY! I did eat my red potatoes with butter and my steamed veggies. I also got a 'salad' but it was more like two bites of lettuce! Hubby ate my bread with his clam chowder.
was an amazing meal and I felt great!

I did get hungry later and realized that I had left the house without packing some snacks like NUTS! *face palm* I ended up in the gift shop buying jerky!

On our way home today we stopped and had breakfast/lunch. I got eggs bennedict without the English muffins and hash browns. That was the last time I ate, and am just now getting ready to eat dinner. Baked chicken thighs, red peppers, salad, cucumbers and avocado!

I had a glorious time with hubby last night, and we both relaxed pretty well! too bad I only got about 3 hours of sleep. The bed was TOO BIG and not mine... so we got up and soaked again this morning... =)

Its the little things. Not something we've ever done before. EVER. and we've been married for almost 8 years! =)

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