B12 Deficiency... not good, but otherwise a decent food day~

So, I am apparently severely B12 deficient. SEVERELY.  I have to get bi-monthly shots and my dr wants me on daily replacement.  I am apparently NOT absorbing it through my gut like I should be, and this is more than likely the cause of my ALMOST DEATH last year. 

I'm going to be making another appointment with my dr to discuss this and why it could be happening and what I can do to stop it.  I eat enough eggs, shellfish, fish and other animal products to be getting MORE than enough of this vit.  I also don't eat wheat so that inflammation should be GONE.  How long should it take for my gut to heal?  Really???

Right now, I want to pull my hair out and SCREAM!

Excited to go get my dog tomorrow, even if I am just going to take her to the vet and such.  I may just keep her overnight because its an hour drive there and then another hour back to where she is staying with my brother in law.  I hope that she is approved.  I hope that it happens before this weekend.  I WANT MY DOG!

I've been eating twice a day.  'fasting' through the morning and eating at 11 or noon.  Then trying very hard to not snack between lunch and dinner at about 530.   My only concern is that I may not be getting enough calories, but I'm NOT hungry.  Perhaps if I pick up my activity again I will be, and I have new dance class starting next week (one day a week for 2.5 hours!) Hip hop fusion and technique and muscle control! *YAY* 

I'm gong to EXPLODE!

I am so nervous and excited at the same time!
I got the letters into the landlord for my emotional support animal accommodation. They called today to ask that I submit a photo and the spay and vaccine records for her. Since she has been living with my brother in law, I dont have her updated vaccines, and if his psycho gf did then we cant find the information. SO~ I've got an appointment tomorrow afternoon to have her shots and a checkup.
I am so afraid they are going to say no. SO afraid.
I am refusing to give into the need to munch. I ate a good breakfast/lunch and am still full.
my heart is beating fast and my fingers are tingly. not feelings I like, but I'm also not going to take a xanax. I'm going to finish cleaning my living room! HA!

My Blood Pressure was NORMAL!

So, my blood pressure was NORMAL today when I went to the dr.  110/70!!!  That is what my pressure was like BEFORE I GOT SICK!   I'm thinking that I'm going to have to invest in a arm cuff reader.  Wallgreens online has them for under $50. Apparently the medicine is working.

I called the dr office (my primary, was at the ob this morning) and asked if I needed to worry about if its going to go lower and what I should look for for symptoms.   Light headed, dizzy blah blah.  All things my medication  has already been doing to me. BUT I do remember the yuck feeling that I was having when I was sick before, so I'll keep an eye out for those feelings.
Went to costco today.  Hubby had ONE request.  Breaded chicken patties.  *ugh* So, my cart was full of strawberries,tomatoes, avocados, spinach, eggs, shrimp, and motz cheese.  THEN there are the breaded chicken patties.  Its almost embarrassing.  Like when I go and buy pasta roni and crap that he wants.  *meh*  Its slowly becoming less and less that I have to mess with the pasta roni and stuff, but its still there.  I'm just glad I have no temptation to eat it. 
Sad that I couldn't find macadamia nuts again today.  Probably for the better, but I've been craving them.

I am amazed!!

I wasn't hungry when I got up today, walked down to the bus stop, came home and tried to read a few emails and ended up back in bed. Woke up to a phone call from my daughter letting me know that she was sick, so I asked if she could make it till her brother got home, because I was headed that way anyhow. Fell back asleep and then was woken up again by the lady who is working with us to do our short sale! *YAY*
Great stuff! I've got a pile of crap to print and sign, but its ok. It would be great to get rid of that. I'm tired of it hanging over our heads.

So~ NO food all morning,  scarfed about 5 bites of leftover hamburger and veggie mixture at about 1 and headed to immediate care because kids were sick, and cant get in to see our dr. Son has a rash, daughter has a virus. 3 hours in the dr office with two kids that were hungry... TOO MUCH! I thought I was going to go crazy. *sigh* BUT I never really lost it like I would have before.

BUT~ My whole point. I had ZERO feelings of low blood sugar. Very few feelings of actual hunger, and my blood pressure wasnt as high! *YAY*  138/88 is way lower than 157/98.  I really wasn't too hungry and came home, had some salad with avocado and then had a chicken sausage and some mashed squash with butter. Almonds and chocolate chips for a snack. I'm more than satisfied. Really, ready for bed.

Waiting for kids to go to bed first though.

Habit~ Its a good thing!

I have found that it is becoming habit for me to eat things that I have outlined for myself!!
I dont reach for the items in the fridge that are non primal, items that are not so good for me or have piles of sugar.  I dont choose to eat refined and processed foods.  I view everything I eat and cook as a way to fuel my body in ways its never been fueled before.  I know the carb counts of everything I eat, and know about how much of each item I can eat and how much I cant. 
I'm very pleased with myself.  I feel better and better.   We even went out to dinner tonight! I had a nom cob style salad from Red Robin with avocado, chicken, bacon, eggs, tomatoes and olives.  I had them leave off the blue cheese because its YUCK!

I've felt a bit woozy since starting my new medication.  It will get better I'm sure.  Its just that I have found that its hard to tell when I'm really needing food because it seems to mimic low blood sugar symptoms.  I haven't had those feelings for a VERY long time.  Not pleased.

Adding a new medication has made it difficult this weekend to get much of anything done.  I have to start sewing tomorrow to get a few items finished and start cutting out other items for my lil show/vending thing.  I've designs in my head and on paper already!

Must head to bed.  Its late, and even though I don't have to get up super early because Brocc doesn't have school, I would like to be out of bed before noon.

Hypertension. Ideas and a Theory.

So, have talked with my husband and his brother (who has a degree in body training, nutrition and all that great fun stuff) and he says that eating the way I am is SUPER healthy, Loves that I'm filling up on clean carbs, but that I need to eat more often. I told him to suck it, I'll eat when I'm hungry and only then, AND that I dont have insane needs to shove food into my mouth over and over again because of blood sugar issues.

BUT~

We also did the 'pow-wow' about my hypertension.

I have NEVER had high blood pressure. After my 4 month stint of my heart working out of control to try and pump what little blood I had in my body THROUGH my body, its been HIGH. out of control high. It was just that I wasn't having it checked very often.

We are thinking that it is possible that my heart was damaged during that time. I did almost die. I should have been dead, but I'm too stubborn to give in. My poor dr doesn't even know what to do with me.

I felt fine today. Went to get my patches, tested my blood pressure and it was 147/89 My HUSBAND had BETTER blood pressure than I did! And he's on medication and ALWAYS high!

If all of my other tests had come back funky, I would have thought that it was because of that, but come on? Are we just seeing the first steps of horrible damage that my heart has caused itself? My blood work is NORMAL. GOOD normal. My dr was in shock of how well my blood work came back. Told me that with better sleep and continued exercise my good cholesterol would continue to go up.

And I know that I am just rambling, but I'm kinda scared and don't really know what to do about it. I'll ask my dr when I go see him with my husband on the 26th (he wants both of us in there) and if I freak out before then, I can always call the office and bug him over the phone. I have my ob appointment on Wednesday, so that will help a bit... We'll see...

Sorry to be so freakish. I have to get it out somewhere...

Its working!!!

So, I've done some major change though my diet in the last few weeks.  Sticking with what I feel works best for me.  and its WORKING!  I'm down 4 pounds this week.
Went to the dr yesterday to get a letter for my landlord so that I can have my dog come live with us as my emotional support service animal.  Its a much needed thing.
I also had lab work done.  its all NORMAL!!!!  My Ha1c is 5.2 (higher than my lowest of 4.5 six years ago)  but lower than the 6.5 it was before I went into the hospital.  My CBC Hemoglobin has gone up another point to 14.5 (YAY!!! This is amazing after being at 3.9)   Said my LDL is a bit low, but that will fix itself with better sleep and continued fitness exercise.
Crappy news... He diagnosed me with hypertension.  My blood pressure was 157/95.  O_o  I had a headache that caused blurred vision for 3 days.  He is prescribing me with a super low dose of Catapres patches for a month, because he imagines that my blood pressure is due to stress and perhaps my birth control pills.  I have an appt with my OB on wednesday.

So, Its moving forward!!!
*YAY*