My dance

I am a belly dancer.  I am also a costumer.  I use belly dance as fitness, stress relief, social time and really TONS of fun!  It makes my brain and my body both work.   After a few years of not really doing any dancing I've jumped back in with both feet first.  Two classes most weeks, lots of dvd practice and basic drills.  I noticed last night, while in class, that I've forgotten how to improvise to music.  O_o WHAT THE HELL?

I've danced for large crowds, small crowds and on a dance floor in a club.  My body ALWAYS knew what it was doing!!!  I realize that it is something that I am going to have to work on, and continue to take classes and drill and work with dvd's.   Showing my audience the music with my body! 

Its almost embarrassing how, in my brain, I want to emulate someone else, and just copy what others are doing instead of thinking for myself.  It could be my major ATS and Tribal background coming to the forefront, but I've done all sorts of dance, solo dance a big part of it.

I remember long time ago when I felt that I had a bunch of costume, and never enough dance to fill it.  I could kick myself now.

So, I am re-teaching my body and my mind the movements of dance. I'm fueling my body with amazing whole food and have TONS of energy and brain power to work with and I will continue to work on and move forward with my dance and someday soon, get back on stage. 

It is a true love, and I won't let it fall to the wayside.